Just Stuff

So, I was having this dream that I was in high school and I had on these way-too-tight capri khaki pants, and let me tell you, I don't own capri khaki pants--I don't own any khaki clothing period. But I had these pants on in my dream, way too tight, and I had like peach and white granny underwear on and you could totally see them through the khakis in my dream. I was finding my way to classes and trying to make sure no one saw my butt and then someone did and made a comment, a not-nice comment and then I was even more self-conscious over the whole thing. I was the new girl and there was a table with two brown girls and I was talking to them cuz one was the editor of the school paper and she was going to try to help me get in with them, and then my other friends got mad and told me not to talk to them, like it was the 1950s or something and it was the whole back-of-the-bus, no-water-fountain-drinking stuff all over again. Dumb.

Then I had to find where I parked my car and it was actually a tricycle and I finally found it. Not sure why that part was in the dream.

Finally, I was running through the mud and grass and all these little wormsnakes kept popping up all over the place so I was jumping up at every step to make sure I wouldn't step on the scary snakes or smush them all over my feet. I kept jumping and jumping and squealing and yelling Ewww Gross because there were so many of these gray, ugly wormsnakes and they were freaking me out.

Next thing you know, there's AJ trying to wake me up. I've told you before how he gets up, gets dressed, watches a little TV and then comes to wake me up at 7:00 a.m. so I can get Diva up and get them breakfast. (He is my adorable little alarm clock!) So, he's waking me up and when I wake, he says, "What were you doing?"

I'm like, "Sleeping."

"No," he says. "With your legs? You were kicking them up and down and all over the place, shaking them."

I laughed and told him, "I was running away from the snakes!" Apparently, when I dream, I actually DO the things I'm dreaming about while I'm sleeping! Who knew? Too weird.

So, more of this Just Stuff stuff... the anonymous poster (who wrote this:
...I have read your blog for a while and I'll have to say, you really need some help. Your blogs have been extremely negative and to be frank, depressing. I use to love your blog but now can't stand to hear the complaining. "change the channel?" Well I am right...now... ) will be thrilled to know that because of his/her comment, I have changed my ways and am trying to no longer be "extremely negative and depressing." Anonymous poster, because of you, my life has changed for the better! So, thank you so much anonymous poster for showing me that my negativity and depressive expressions were not only boring readers, but they were also being very harmful to me. I wish you hadn't stopped reading. I feel I can now be a friend to you, seeing as I'm no longer negative and depressed. Thank you.

Yes, I really was suffering from S.A.D. (seasonal affective disorder) and while it seems like a mild 'problem' to have, it really did disrupt my life for the months of January and February. I had been to the doctor, who took blood, yada yada, I cried, yada, yada, they sent me for a thyroid ultrasound which thankfully, turned out to be normal, but the two minutes she left me in the room after the ultrasound so she could "Check the pictures to make sure I did them right" my mind was reeling with thoughts of disease and all that other shit that goes along with disease. But, apparently, I'm okay, and I'm very thankful for that. Some people might call me a hypochondriac, but you know what I say? If I'm feeling skeptical about my health, or concerned that I'm not feeling the way I know I usually feel, then I'm going to use that health insurance I've got and get myself checked out. I am very proactive when it comes to my health, and the health of my loved ones. I don't "wait and see" for nobody!

Let's see, what is coming up in Manic Mom's life? Hub is throwing a 'party' for his colleagues as a thank you for their hard work and dedication to the company. I told him, "Oh great, now I have to play the 'wife'" -- he said I don't have to; just to be myself, soooo bring on the cosmos! I just hope I don't spill the beans on any private stuff I should not be sharing with these folks. Kids will be at the in-laws for the whole weekend (thanks G'ma and G'pa!) so we've got the whole house to ourselves (sorry G'ma and G'pa--bet ya didn't want to know that!) I'm planning a date night for Friday. It's been years since Hub and I have been on a 'date.' Okay, last summer, but it feels like years!

On the writing front, I'm gearing up to do a major overhaul on 40 Weeks at the suggestions/comments of some people in higher places. I think getting into this revision is just like beginning a diet program, exercise program or getting in the mood for sex--I just have to jump in head first and start doing it, and then I'll be thrilled with the results!

Thanks to all of you who left fabulous suggestions on the itunes front. Also, if anyone knows how to 'share' music with others, my sister and I are trying to trade music!

Sorry so boring, but just felt like talking with you! Hope you all are well! I finally am! xo