I need some space and some quiet and some really deep breathing exercises. These kids are officially off their rockers and driving me INSANE. Is it OK that I’m admitting this? It’s just time for them to go back to school so I can get my house and my quiet and my routine back. I’ve been thinking a lot about the things I want to do for ME when they go back. And call me selfish if you must, but there’s a ME here that deserves some ME time. Some time to focus on me to get me back to where I am happier. And happier means sane, quiet, thinner, calmer, more rested and smiling. That’s what I need to be the happier ME I can be.
So, here’s a list of some of the things I’m going to do as soon as school starts. Which is in 8 days:
Stop eating crap. Because really, I haven’t stopped eating crap since April. And this is what I do – I eat crap until I’m back to not being happy with my body. Then I start over again. It’s like I love the challenge of going back to WW, getting my life back on track. I must be insane. Why don’t I just stick to it? How freaking hard is it to concentrate on what I eat, and still eat the things I enjoy? How difficult is it to drink more water? I wake up each morning and go to the mirror and see the puffy-faced ME that I don’t want to be. I look at my fingers every morning and see that they’re swollen because I’ve got too much sodium in my diet. And yeah, don’t get me started on the fact that my cholesterol is kind of up there, which I knew would be not too good, and I do know that when I FOCUS on ME and start eating better again, then that number will go down, and my fingers and face (and the rest of me) won’t be all oompa loompa-ish.
Bike ride. Because Diva and I went for a 10-mile ride the other day which was amazing. Someone said just the other day that the quickest way to feel like a kid again is to get on a bike and ride through the wind. It is so true. So guess what I bought for myself last weekend? A bike. A cute ‘hybrid’ bike that’s a fun green color. It’s hybrid because you can ride on the street or trails on it. I am getting used to it and finding that it’s a fun activity. I don’t know if biking will aid in any weight-loss program, but it sure does make me feel happy and good, and remember, this is all about ME right now! So, biking. I’m going to do it.
Exercise. Yoga on Tuesdays and Fridays. Spinning on Wednesday. Those are my goals. And biking on my new fun bike when the urge strikes, and I hope it strikes often.
Write AND finish this damn second novel I have been dreaming up of and have ½ of it done already.
See movies. Anytime I want. And eat popcorn while I’m there. And a big old Diet Coke.
Be there for my kids when they get home from school. Physically and mentally.
Work. I love my freelance work and want to continue to do it. I’m at a point now where I’m happy with what I’m doing, with the amount of time I spend doing it, and the outcome of most of what I write and do. See for yourself and check out BettyConfidential.com – a great fun women’s website!
Read. As you all know, I FREAKIN’ LOVE books and stories and to read a lot! I never just sit and read. I always grab my book at bedtime and read a bit while my eyes close. That’s not real good reading. That’s reading to fall asleep. And while I do love it, I think I need to read when I’m not falling asleep. So often I’ll read a book and the following week I swear I cannot remember the title or the story or the characters’ names even though I loved the book. So I guess that means I need to concentrate on my reading. RIght now I am reading a FABULOUS suspenseful great book called The Weight of Silence by Heather Gudenkauf. It's one of those books that I DEFINITELY cannot put down and one that keeps you wondering the whole time what is going to happen!
And great, now Diva just whacked me in the thigh and stepped on my foot, part of it was accident, part on purpose (OK, I was telling her she needed some deodorant, so that’s why this happened, and now I can’t concentrate on what I wanted to say …
Which means I need to start CONCENTRATING! Oh boy. I am just a jumble of everything and I want some NORMAL!!!
So, thanks for letting me rant for a bit. There’s still time to enter to win the Bunch-O-Swag giveaway. I think I’ll do the drawing on Thursday!
Bye for now. And let the countdown begin of only 8 days till school, although my Ajers is going to Junior High so I might be crying a little.
What are YOU going to do with your time to help you find YOU?