Friday, August 21, 2009

SeVeN PoiNT eiGHT

You read that right: Seven-Point-Eight pounds. I'm 7.8 pounds LESS than I was last Saturday.

That’s how much the scale was down when I weighed in this a.m. I about freaked out. I know I have a lot to lose, and that most of that is water, and that having a migraine Sunday night and puking my guts out all through the night and not being able to eat all day Monday has something to do with it, BUT STILL!!!!

It’s the motivation I needed to keep up with Weight Watchers. Because I have to. And I wasn’t going to look at the number today, wasn’t ready yet, but the lady said something that had me curious so I looked.

And, it’s still higher than I thought it would have been when I weighed in last week.

BUT STILL!

I am keeping up with it.

And for those of you skeptics out there. Let me tell you what I ate this week. I had chocolate, peanut butter and jelly, Fritos, a Happy meal hamburger AND French fries, and frozen yogurt (TWICE, with SPRINKLES!) I had chips and salsa with avocado and sour cream, tortillas, tomato soup, grilled cheese, a baked potato with low-fat broccoli and cheddar sauce (which is what I barfed up Sunday night, along with asparagus – might be a while till I eat those foods again.) I ate bread with butter, MOVIE popcorn (loads of it!), cake bites, pasta/bean salad, watermelon, grapes, SUBWAY 6-inch turkey sandwich.

Aren’t all those things SOOOOO good to eat? I ate, I wasn’t hungry, and I lost weight. I am so happy now. What a difference a slap in the face and a week makes.

So, here’s what else. I cannot for the life of me – Oh no, I take that back – I remember now. This guy, Bill Stubbs, who is on a PBS show said in an interview something really that struck me. About how you can go through life either being the guest or the host. You can sit back and watch everything going on, and wait for someone to come to your rescue, as the guest. OR, you can choose to be the host, and make everyone feel comfortable, fill their cups (which, are already HALF-FULL, mind you!), and make sure everyone is well and good and happy. I want to be the host. Maybe that’s why I chit-chat with anyone who will listen, why I talk to people on the elevator (because awkward convo is much better than dead silence when you’re two feet away from a stranger). Maybe this is why when I ride my bike, I say hello to every single person I pass, or I thank them for moving out of my way, and I explain to them that I’m new at this bike riding stuff. And I smile. A little smile and a hello can go a long way to someone. And a “have a nice day” never, ever sucks.

I have told Ajers time and time again that he should never ignore anyone, even if he doesn’t like that person (and in 6th grade, some kids don’t like others, it’s just natural.) He says, “Why should I say hello to someone who doesn’t even talk to me?” Because it’s the nice thing to do; it’s the kind thing to do, and it comes back full circle, good karma man, good karma.

And can you tell I just downed a non-fat sugar-free vanilla iced latte? I think the caffeine hit and I’m just typing away like a fiend. It’s either that or the fact that the words are just coming out of my brain into my fingertips faster than I can think.

And I went to yoga this morning, which just seeing Toni, my instructor sent a wave of relief through me. It was just what I needed. She said some very interesting things today that brought some great visuals to my mind:

“Let the sand settle and clear your waters.”

That’s what I’m trying to do here. I need to clear my waters: my body, my mind, my soul, my outlook on life. I need some calm waters in my life.

And phew. I think I’m done. Thanks for listening. These words came out faster than I could type them. And now, in staying with the theme of taking care of myself and feeling good about myself, I am treating myself to a movie today and going to see The Ugly Truth. And yes, I will have movie popcorn!

Peace UP!

NOTE: Please check out Pocket Doodles For Kids for a chance to win a fun book for your kids (And OK, it’s fun for YOU too!)

21 comments:

~Aimee States said...

I heard something similar in a sense a long time ago.

"I am not a victim in my life, my weight, my finances, etc., I'm the perpetrator."

We do it to ourselves, so we can't just sit around and cry about it. And I don't wanna be the perp!

The Stiletto Mom said...

Good for you! And yes...sounds like you've had a little caffeine! My quest for better health starts Monday when the kids go back. *sigh*

MaNiC MoMMy™ said...

Oh, great one Aimee! And I forgot I was going to write something another friend told me today: We have to manage our mountains. Some choose to live in the valley, some at the plateau, and some at the peak! So profound and thoughtful!

MaNiC MoMMy™ said...

Stiletto! That's when we can do it! My kids started this past wed.

Erin T. said...

Good for you! Too many times we want the quick result to weight loss, and I'm glad to hear that you're proud of what you've accomplished.

Your quotes remind me of an inspirational quote I heard once:
"Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself." Harvey Fierstein

morninglight mama said...

Oh yes, this is wonderful news-- good for you! When you feel good, all is good with life, right? Here's to happy days all around!!

Maureen Lipinski said...

Beautiful post! You have such a great attitude!

Christine in NJ said...

Peaks and Valleys - Spencer Johnson. A quick/easy read which I know you will enjoy right now.

Manic - You are an inspiration, wonderful person, great writer, fabulous mom... you go girl! Can I be the president of your Fan Club! HaHa!!!!

Christine

DawnfromCA said...

Woo hoo! Go Manic!! Congrats on your week of better health for your mind, body and soul.
If Christine from NJ is your fan club president, I want to be Joe Biden!
Cheers!

Amanda said...

Congratulations on the weight loss. Hate to say it but for all the calories and fat grams in what you did eat you could've eaten like a queen on proper food. I know I know on my soap box again but it's my soap box and I like it.

I am so convinced weight adjustment - lets face it there must be some one some where who actually wants to gain weight - is 90% mental. Get the right head and the rest will follow. My head was not in the right place last night and I confess I fell off the wagon into a bottle of wine and plate of cheese. Oops! Never mind, today I'm back on my soap box and all is well with the world!

Weigh in tomorrow - wish me luck!

MaNiC MoMMy™ said...

Amanda, good luck on your weigh in. PS--Proper food would have bored me! LOL

Amanda said...

Learn to cook and you will never ever be bored again! LOl!!

MaNiC MoMMy™ said...

Good God, NO! Then I'd never have time to blog! hahahahah

Amanda said...

OK, Monday am is here --I wee'd I weighed I am 4lbs lighter!! :)

Kirsten said...

Congrats!! After a summer long slack off I too am back on the WW. Started this morning. Oh, so excited. With 20+ lbs to lose, I am fully aware it may take a year, but I will be diligent! Thank you for the motivation and encouragement I needed to get back on track!

Jess Riley said...

Way to go on WW! Also, you are an excellent host.

March to the Sea said...

I like your diet...keep up the good work!

Mary~Momathon said...

Congrats on the loss! Thats as much as a baby!

shopgirl said...

Congrats on the weight loss!! Consider me inspired!! I loved this post - I definitely want to be the host of my life.

Thanks!!

ReadyMom said...

Good for you, Stephanie. My theory has always been that if food tastes satisfying, you don't have to eat as much of it. Then again, I've found that applies for everything except Ghirardelli chocolate.

Have you tried Zbars? I just discovered them--satisfies the need for rich, chocolate. Made by the same people as Power Bars, I believe. Look in the nutrition bar section, they're for kids, but low/natural sugar, tasty, low carbs/fat. Choc brownie is the best, skip PB/Choc chip.

msprimadonna67 said...

You can either be the guest or the host? I like that!