Tuesday, August 19, 2008

i aM aLL aLoNe

my babies are all gone.

to school.

i am here alone.

in my house.

with no babies.

no noise.

so loud,

it's deafening.

it's a weird feeling.

can i miss them already.

so much?

i might feel like crying.

so maybe i will.

37 comments:

Anonymous said...

Dang school starts early for peeps in the midwest.

The Gang's All Here! said...

Aaaaaaw, I'm sorry! We have another few weeks of summer here, but I am fairly certain that I'll have some deafening days of quiet between sending them off on the big mean school bus and winging my way to China for Baby A. I'll be crying too!

On The Verge said...

Just found your site and wanted to say hi. I can totally relate. My kids will be going back next week. I still have two more at home. But, I know I will miss the other two.

My Semblance of Sanity said...

That's how I will be.
Oldest two start Aug 25..."Baby" goes Sept 4th!

I will be a basket case!

March to the Sea said...

ah..get a drink, watch the view and enjoy the downtime. As parents we never get it..and when we do we always feel guilty of it.

My boys are Army Brats said...

Me too. I thought I'd be happy and excited and love the time to myself but I feel lost.

I think the worst part was that I imagined the kids being in school all day and getting spend the lunch hour with my hubby. I sooo looked forward to time alone just the two of us every single day.

Now I have the time alone, truly alone and I'm not impressed.

Kirsten said...

Oh Manic, I thought we were so alike until I read this post. You must pull yourself together girl! Ha ha.

Mabunny said...

Yeah, Nicole went back yesterday too. In the afternoon I was web searching and thought "hmm, I'l go play a game with Nicole, what should we play?", then remembered that she wasnt' here, and wouldn't be home for 3 more hours! WAAAAAAA/sniff

T with Honey said...

Go for it. Every girl needs a good cry once in a while.

Melissa said...

Ack! A couple more weeks and I will be writing the same thing....hang in there!

Melisa said...

SUCK IT UP, SISTER! :)

I give it til the first "Institute Day": you'll be wishing they were in class...

Colorado Writer said...

You need to WRITE!!!! USE THE TIME WISELY!!!

Kristin said...

It's okay. They will be home soon and everything will be as loud as you remember. And you will get to hear all about their day at school. :)

Bethany said...

:( We don't start until next Wednesday... I'm checking back in a few days to see if it gets better.

Manic Mom said...

Yeah, I'm actually fine, and starting to get a headache, which will probably just get bigger when they get off the bus. I should go take some aspirin now!

Still, it was a weird day.

morninglight mama said...

cry a good cry... then crack open a cold beverage of your choice, grab a book and revel in the loud silence! :)

Anonymous said...

My 7 yr old starts tomorrow, and I'm bummed about it. My 4.5 yr old doesn't start until after labor day. I love them not being in school. I work full time, but I love them being able to hang out with each other. They grow up fast enough as it is.

B. said...

I'm sure they will have some fun back to school stories to share with you, which you MUST post!

Bina said...

Oh that's right! ALL your kids are in school now!

In a few weeks, you will welcome the silence, believe me. It just takes getting used to.

Kristen DeDeyn Kirk said...

You just never know how you'll react. When my two got out of school in June, I noticed I was happy -- the exact opposite emotion I was expecting! Now that I'm worried about missing them in a few days when they go back, maybe I won't. Could I be so lucky to be happy on both ends of summer?

Kristen at www.thefamilythatreadstogether.blogspot.com

Amanda said...

I give you a week to share my bliss. The kids are off to school, the house is mine, all mine!!

Kate said...

It's okay to be sad. And it's okay if you're glad tomorrow. =)

Eileen said...

Yeah- but now you can cuss all day long and no one will copy you.

Feener said...

oh man you are killing me

R said...

Hey there.....
I say now is the time to be selfish when they are away during the day!

It's you time.

They will be back. Enjoy them and spoil them when they return. Until then ...... run around the house naked or do whatever it is you do.

;)

Kim Stagliano said...

Growing up is good. Wallow for a few minutes - you're allowed. It's a milestone, like when that last baby tooth falls our or they stop nursing. It stings a bit.It's bittersweet. But count your blessings that they will grow up. You know why.

Manic Mom said...

R-Martini?

Not Hannah said...

Bless your heart. (Although I must say I'm a tad jealous of your quiet.) The house always seems weird when my boy isn't here, too.

Cecily R said...

Was it better today?

I think when it happens for me I'll feel the same way...even if I do have a few years to get ready for it.

On The Verge said...

Thanks for the comments. I am not sure how I found you. I like to read others blog rolls. I think you were on someone's roll. Hope each day is getting easier for you.

Jenster said...

Aw... Cry all you want! You know, I lost 35 pounds when my youngest went to kindergarten because I was so depressed. Now she's in 8th grade and I celebrate when school starts!! :o)

Michelle said...

Awww Steph! I'm so sorry it's sad when they're gone. Our grade school and older starts next Tuesday (my husband goes back already?) and K and below starts the following week. I'm a little nervous about how I'll feel, but at least I have two years to prepare before they're both gone at school 5 days a week (unless of course Little Miss qualifies for early learning when she gets evaluated next Friday...).

So how did *they* enjoy the first day of (back at) school? No first day pics for us all to ooo and ahhh over?

R said...

Yes....Martini.

Forgot I changed my profile thingy.....

:)

Manic Mom said...

Knew it was you with the whole nekkid comment...

how did you know! : )

Karla with a K said...

Hey Manic,
You guys are a couple weeks ahead of us in CT. I know this is how I'll feel when my youngest goes full time to 1st grade next year.

Love the poem.

Michelle O'Neil said...

Oh! My youngest starts kindergarten on Thursday. I am outwardly really psyched, but in those quiet moments, I am feeling the pang.

Kwana said...

Poor you. I shall be the opposite when next week comes around. It will be all cartwheels and cheers in my house. I'm an awful mom!