Friday, November 30, 2007

Back On My Meds & A Movie Whore

So, I’m back on my meds. It’s been a rough few weeks, not something I share on the blog too much, and I hope to be feeling better soon. Roller coaster of emotions. My doctor has been great. She describes it as truly a disease, and just as a person with diabetes needs medication, or a person with kidney disease needs medication, I have chemical imbalance in the brain and I need medication. Deep sigh. I’m totally OK with that. I like myself WAY better when I’m on Effexor. And I know my family does too.

In the interim, I was a movie whore yesterday. Saw one while the kids were at school. Saw one with the kids after school. Loved them BOTH! Loved the music in them both! Loved the leading men in them both!

Do yourself a favor, screw shopping this weekend, and treat yourself to a movie:

August Rush


Enchanted


A couple other things:

~ Fave author in the world Jen Weiner had her baby, thanks to Swishy IMming me to tell me today! Phoebe Pearl is the baby's name. Thought you'd all be as excited as I was to hear this news!

~ Going to Weight Watchers for real tomorrow morning. For really real. It’s time. Really time. I’m not kidding. There. I said it. It must be true. Shitola. And yes, for those wondering, that is pronounced SHY-TOE-LAH!

~I'm cleaning out my office--it's like training for a marathon--you know, like preparing for a major event, and my major event is to get my ass into gear to write my second book, well finish the first draft I'm half-way done with. I need to bulldoze through the crap in here, declutter my clutter and get into shape to start writing again. Because we're just about one month away from Resolution time!

~ Be safe this holiday season. A neighbor in our subdivision was not just ‘robbed’ on Wednesday, but ‘ransacked’ is the word used to describe the robbery. Apparently, the thieves broke in via the front door, then drove their van into their garage, went through every drawer in their house. They rang neighbor’s doors to make sure no one close by was home. I’m very thankful we have an alarm system that I set each and every time we leave the house. Make sure to keep your garage doors closed, your home doors locked, and packages out of view in your car. And always lock your car doors. That’s just asking for something to be stolen. And don’t let your kids out of your sight. It’s one thing to have possessions stolen, but the real valuables are your family. Keep everyone safe. This has been a Manic Public Message.

~ This weekend marks THREE freaking years I’ve been blogging. Has blogging even been around that long? Am I insane? Why do I continue? Again, Shitola.

To give you an idea of where I was three years ago, I give you two installments of what I wrote on that first day’s post, December 3, 2004:

So, being freshly relocated to the Chicago area, the men in this family are all about the sports scene. Mr. Manic’s buddy was able to score some big tix for a box at the Bulls game. I used to follow MJ back when he was 23, then 45, then we moved east and I became disenchanted. Now we're back, and it would be really cool to see a game, experience the Chicago sports thing again, and maybe eat and drink some free grub. I thought it would be a fun family night, seeing as we've all been a little stressed with the relocation.

Hub: Joe got about 25 tickets to a Bulls game skybox.

Me: Cool! Can our whole family go?

Hub: Uh... I'll have to check with Joe. [grabs the cordless, walks into the other room and makes a call - or maybe he didn't make a call? hmmm....]

Hub (returning from the other room): Actually, he's only got 10 tickets.

Yeah, right.... and next time someone in this house wants to score, there just might not be a ticket available for the box...


And then, this post---

Last night, my seven-year old, out of the blue, mind you, opens up an interesting topic of discussion. Let me replay the incident for you within quotation marks:

AJers: Mom, how do you spell fuck?
(Emphasis was placed on the word DO, as if he had been contemplating this earth shattering question for days now in his young life.)

After my eyeballs were suctioned back into my head by the inhalation of my breath, I said,

"Where did you ever hear that?"

AJers: (shrugging) "I dunno."

I pressed further: "Come on, where did you hear that?"

AJers: "Nowhere."

Me: "AJers?"

Unable to come up with a logical answer he lifts his shoulders and his eyebrows, almost as if a question and says: "You?"

Me: "You never heard me say that!"

AJers: "Yeah, remember the other day, you started to go 'ffffffffrrrr'?"

Me: "I was going to say FREAK."

Then I sat him down and said, "AJers, that is the baddest, baddest worst bad word in the entire world. Worse than stupid or dumb or hate or fart or crap and I never want you to say it again, okay?"

AJers: "Okay."

Me: "I'm not mad at you. I'm glad we had this talk."

Fuck, what am I going to do now?

19 comments:

Eileen said...

It's all about function baby- if the meds work then toss em back with a smile.

Enchanted is on my list to see. Now I just need to find the time.

Colorado Writer said...

One day at a time, baby!

Cecily R said...

Very funny, and very ironic! I'm still laughing.

Yay for a good doctor! Yay for a happier Manic!

I saw both of those movies last week and loved them both!

Anonymous said...

OK, so while you're a happy bunny all druged up, how about thinking of attacking the underlying reasons why you feel better on meds? Could you kick the habbit with some manic friendly therapy? My hubby did it with art therapy and whilst he has had to re-visit the drugs for a short while to cope with a major life change he's now off them again with out therapy. Good help is hard to find and I wish you lots of luck and love in your search. If drugs are your only option that's what you've got but it could be worth asking a few questions.

kay said...

i have missed you.

amanda said...

So you've always been like this?!

Happy third blogbirthday Manic!

Melissa said...

Take the meds, that's what they're there for.
Love the look back in time. Here's to 3 more years.

Melek said...

welcome back. been boring without you :)

KATE said...

There is nothing wrong with being on meds. Good job, for realizing that & doing what you need to do for you!
Tonight lets toast our Diet Cokes to feeling good!
I love your "How do you spell F*#%" post! Very funny!! Those dang stinky kids! ha ha

JODI said...

Went to the Cans Film Festival (that's were you donate 5 can goods in exchange for a movie) saw August Rush. I loved it...we all loved it! I haven't loved a music movie this much since Music of the Heart. Robin Williams, you have to love to hate his character.

So I say...tis' good to be a movie whore ;-)

My Semblance of Sanity said...

My son stuck up his middle finger while at the dinner table with my in-laws after his first day of 1st grade and said - "Ma, what does THIS mean?"

%^&*!!!!!

LeighAnn said...

Effexor will make a difference. I guess you know that, since you are back on it.

I went to see Love in the Time of Cholera. The book was incredible....the movie BLECK!!

I will have to try those other two!

Eileen said...

I LOVED Enchanted. Took my girls and all the cousins. We all left very, very happy.
Your doctor is totally right about the Effexor!! Glad you went to chat with the good doc. That is why they make them. I'm with ya.

Your kids are too funny, wonder where they get it? Hmmmmmmm
XOXOOX

secretmom said...

congrats on your anniversary! and i'm glad you are doing what you need to do for yourself and your family!

Rebecca said...

Good for you for taking care of yourself. I struggle with being the way I think I SHOULD be versus the way I NEED to be to really take care of myself. I think you are really brave.

And I love that you see movies on your own. That is one of my favorite past times.

violetvirus said...

I love Enchanted, too...I wouldn't even mind watching it again and again...

Oh and I'm as excited as you to hear about Jen Weiner's baby..I'm imagining a little Jen!..thanks for d happy news!

Tanya said...

Two movies in a day? What fun! I rarely even go see one. I need to get out more.

Three Years of Blogging is quite impressive. Good job. Now give us 3 more please.

:)

Rob said...

>> I need to bulldoze through the crap in here, declutter my clutter and get into shape to start writing again.<<

No, no, NO! When you do that you can not work anymore because you don't know where in the hell anything else if it is not stacked right in your work area! Trust me; I have failed to learn this lesson the hard way too many times to count.

Heather said...

Ok, the "f" bomb talk cracked me up.