Five Years Ago Today, I Wrote This:

September 11, 2001, Tuesday
(For reference, Luke was nine days old, and I remember feeling horrible that I had just brought my newborn son into a world like this.)

Today is an extremely sad day for our country. An unbelievable thing happened killing thousands and thousands of people. Terrorist highjackers crashed airplanes into the two World Trade Center buildings in NY and they exploded and collapsed, killing thousands. And then two more planes went down, one crashing into the Pentagon in DC, and one near Pittsburgh. It has been a surreal day and I can't even explain my feelings. The images on TV have left me crying and confused. What kind of crazy people could want to do this? Our country is really under attack -- all airlines in the US closed down, schools, government buildings, amusement parks, monuments, everything has been closed down.

It is so scary to think what could happen next. Are we safe in our own home? Should I worry about sending Aj to preschool or going to the grocery store or to a park? Where is the next target?

I get scared and sad mostly for my babies. I want more than anything in the world to keep them safe from the dangers of the world. I cried a little today and explained what I could to AJ - that bad people crashed a plane into a building and hurt a lot of people. I think he thinks a crash is cool cuz he plays with Rescue Heroes and he was asking if firemen and policement were there and did they call 911?

This is the most tragic and devastating thing to ever happen to the United States of America and I hope it is over and that nothing like this ever happens again. I am sure we are goin gto go to war with Afganistan and whoever else did this. When you kids are older and read these journals, this stuff will be written in your history books. I can't even believe our country is going through this right now.

I just called my mommy and daddy. We are all safe and sound. Dear God, please keep us safe from the dangers of the world and continue to let us be a loving, kind, caring, close family. Please spare us from any harm and pain and danger. Keep my babies safe so I can raise them to experience the good the world has to offer. Amen, and thank you for what you have given to us so far. Just keep my family in your loving arms. They are the most important thing to me. Nothing else matters but my family. Amen and please help the families of all the victims survive this horror. Amen.

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I just wanted to take a moment to remember and pay homage to those who lost their lives, their loved ones, their jobs, their faith, their friend on this terrible day five years ago. I am sad and reflective and hoping we are all kept safe.

God Bless Us All, and God Bless America...

Tomorrow, we resume our regularly scheduled Manic Program.