Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Bummin' Out

Lucky you. You get to read about how I'm crabby again. You might want to click onto another more cheerful Mommy Blog cuz I am just in the mood to be a bitch right now.

Why is it that anytime a box of Kraft Mac 'n' Cheese is made, whether it be the plain mac, Spiderman mac, Scooby-Doo or Spongebob mac, Blue's Clues mac... why is it that one spoonful leads to the devouration (is that a word?) of all the leftover mac in the pot? Seriously, Kraft Mac 'n' Cheese has a drug-inducing effect on me. I tell myself, "Okay, I'll have just one bite to make sure it's not too hot for Tukey." One bite turns into fifteen.

See, told you I'm crabby.

I haven't showered since Sunday. I know, I know. I am totally gross. I was going to this a.m. but Tukey woke up at midnight last night, came out of his room, crying, burning up, saying he had to puke. And then he did. Fortunately, he managed to do so in the toilet. So, he was in our bed. Then I finally get him back to his room around 3, and a couple hours later, Ajers is in my room with a headache. I'm tired and crabby.

I am going on and on about nothing right now. I got a rejection from another agent. And if you're an agent reading this, please don't think "Oh, then I don't want to represent her and her book" because, really, I would be your best client! I just don't know what to do about this book. Rewrite it all? All 450 pages, 120,000 words? Blood, sweat and tears, and late nights went into this story. Do I ditch it? Do I throw it away, toss it into the drawer. Hold a funeral for the characters? I'm tired of the rejection. God, thank you for not making me single right now, I couldn't take anymore rejection.

So, since the writing thing isn't going as I had hoped, I think I'm going to become Susie Homemaker. All the laundry is done in the house. I went grocery shopping today. I pre-made three meatloaves this a.m. and froze them. I've got some BBQ pork in the crock-pot right now. I've got some ideas for meals for the rest of the week. Maybe I'll just learn how to cook and become a fat, boring, depressed housewife who does laundry all day long, and finally knows how to make a freaking meatloaf.

Maybe I'll go take a shower. Nah. I think I'll go lie down on the couch and continue feeling crabby, crappy, bitchy, whiny. That'll make me feel better.

Sis-in-Law update: no baby yet.


Heather Hansen said...

I'm sorry. :(

Jessica said...

It's a total (Japanese) cliche (re: rejection) but "fall down seven times, stand up eight".

Hope you start feeling better.

Carly said...

I love that mac & cheese crap.

You'll get there...fingers are crossed for you.

PS: hey now, give yourself permission to be something other than perfectly perky. Sick kids can really drain the energy out of a girl.

Mama D said...

Don't have a funeral for your characters. Some agent is going to love your book it's going to happen. I can't even finish a 800 word article I want to submit to a parent mag. Let the rejection slide off you like ... hmmm... like... something slides off you. Gee, I wonder why I can't finish my article. You can be crabby and unshowered anytime you feel like it!

Dear Jane... said...

sorry. Trust me, I know rejection and sick kids all in the same day...over and over and over again. Allow yourself the pity party today & tomorrow, wake up early & go to the gym, or on a walk or something for yourself & then shower & (joel was right) put on something sexy & makeup & do your hair. When I feel the worst, I try to look my best...reverse psychology, baby. Hope you feel better soon!

Randy said...

Well, young lady, I can see it's high time to return a favor here.

All through December, I felt burnt-out on the whole writing thing--even though a full of my first ms was under consideration at Avalon (and still is). I'd finished a second, was working on a third, and NO ONE, but NO ONE, seemed to even wanna LOOK at ms #2.

Lo and behold, I saw your post (you know where) with a list of agents taking email queries. I decided (sighing wearily) to go down the list one-by-one. Well, after discarding several because I'd either submitted to them or they weren't looking for my genre, I came to an outfit with ONE lonely agent looking for romance--ha, aren't ALL lonely people looking for romance?--anyway, I queried her that night...and had a request by the time I woke up the next morning! Yay! Finally...a NIBBLE on this second manuscript I'd worked a year on! No, it's not a sale, it's not even a request for the full...but it's SOMETHING...and it has encouraged me--and you played a role in it happening!!

So, here's my humble wisdom in return, MM: it's all about baby steps (you know about those, right?). Each baby step will bring you closer to your dream of publication. Some days you may fall down, but YOU WILL WALK. You just have to keep getting up and trying some more. (Okay, not so eloquent, but you get my drift.)

cubmommy said...

Sorry it has turned out to be bad day. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Don't worry about the showering I hadn't either since Sunday. I just got one today.

By the way Joel's comment made me laugh!

Anonymous said...

According to Miss Snark and other authors/agents I've heard/read, you should query 80-100 agents. (I know, I know. That's a LOT.) If you don't get a fabulous one from that, then shelve the book. You'll get it someday, whether it's with this book or your next one or your fifth or your tenth. Then you can pull out all your earlier manuscripts, polish them up using what you've learned in the interim, and shove those at your agent/editor, too. Nothing wasted. Take heart and don't give up, okay? (That said, I'm really sorry about the rejection. They really suck.)

MaNiC MoMMy™ said...

I showered. But sorry Joel, no thong or lace--that would just depress me more! LOL, and thanks for the laugh.

Jessica--If you fall down seven times, and stand up eight, aren't you already standing up before you fall the first time? Is that like, "If a tree falls in the forest and no one's around...?"

Carly--I made THREE boxes of Mac today. However, thankfully, leftovers made it to the fridge and not to my gut.

Mama D--What type of article are you writing?!!? That's cool, and you can do it!

Dear Jane--you are sooo right. Yesterday, I started the day out with a power walk with Tukey in stroller to Starbucks. The sun was out, it was cold, we were bundled up, and it was a great start to a nice day ('course I didn't get the rejection yesterday a.m.!)

Randy--thanks for the lift! And I'm glad that you're getting some bites now too! I also queried that whole list! It was a good one.

CubMommy--I used to never not shower. I used to get up every day, exercise, take a shower, start my day off right. I don't know, this year has just been off for me...

Caryn--I have sent out 81 queries. I think I'll give it a rest for now, then work on MS #2. Maybe then I'll send out the last 20 queries before I put MS #1 to bed, or out of its misery! LOL...

As always, thanks guys for your words of wisdom and laughable comments to make me smile!

Anonymous said...

Have you had many people look at your query letter? I can take a look if you want.

MaNiC MoMMy™ said...

Caryn--probably 1/3 of the agents do request a partial of my ms after they read the query letter. I feel good about that part at least. I just looked in my email addresses to email it to you though, and can't find your address--will you email me and then I'll send the query for you to look at!? Thanks!

karla said...

I want you to feel better. And I know exactly how you feel about eating all the Mac-n-Cheese, because I can't tell you how many times I've done the exact same thing. So, to help out, I'm coming over to help eat that meatloaf. I likes me some meatloaf, and I haven't had any in a long time. And I'd feel really rotten if you ate it all yourself like you did the Mac. So crack open a bottle of wine, because I'm a drinker, and I'm on my way over.

MaNiC MoMMy™ said...

Karla--I knew we'd hit it off when I saw those martinis over at karlababble! Can we skip the meatloaf? I'm kinda full--but I'm always up for some vino! THanks for cheering me up some!

Oh, and everyone, I think my sis-in-law's water broke and my brother is not drunk, so those are two both very good signs!

Anonymous said...

Thanks a lot--now I had to go and have Mac & Cheese for dinner, even though I was saving the last dregs of milk for tomorrow's breakfast! ;-)

The address is cgostlin (AT) hotmail (DOTTYDOTDOT) com. There. Think that'll prevent the address harvesters?

xxxx said...

You are NOT allowed to shelve this book yet! You're having too much success with your query. It's just a matter of time.

But in the meantime, eat all the damn mac and cheese you want.

And the shower thing? I showered Saturday night and didn't again until Tuesday morning. So don't sweat it (because if you do, you'll REALLY have to shower! Ha ha. Me and my lameass humor.)

Monkey said...

Blue Clues and Scooby is the best.

There is an agent out there for your book. Do NOT lose hope. Tell yourself inspiring stories of other writers who had to go through and Tukey like vomit to get to the other side.

In other news: the road to happiness is not through Stepford. So happy you haven't showered since Sunday. Neither have I!

Monkey said...

I'm so tired.. I meant "go through crap and vomit". Um... yeah.

her master said...

Hey Steph, if you want, I can read and edit/comment on your book.

kim said...

All this talk -- I'm hard core craving mac and cheese now.

Jessica said...

Hey, I wanted to come back by and thank you for all the kind comments you left on my blog - I've added you to my blogroll (hope that doesn't make your day crappier)!